But not the kind you likely expected. That of an actual child. Or two. But more a metaphorical child in the form of my new web site. And its not-quite-identical twin; my first blog post.
I had no idea the number of things that would come up for me emotionally in the process but thought that a blog might provide an opportunity to examine them. I am a very private person. Until now it would seem. The experience has been challenging. Although I know we live in the age where people openly share minutae about themselves, along with some very personal and intimate issues, that has not been my preference.
In the process of creating the web site and blog, I had a lot of thoughts and doubts arise. Is it ‘good enough’? When is something considered ‘good enough’? Would I be judged? By whom? Which is worse, judgement by others or critical judgement of self? Who would read this? Who would care? And so on.
I had serious doubts that the world needs more people talking about more things. Hasn’t everything already been discussed? But then I realized that if we all felt the same, conversations wouldn’t be started and we wouldn’t deepen, learn and grow. I’ve never forgotten my first Buddhist service where the dharma talk was focused on the following message: We are all connected. It was a profound service focused on this theme and one I have not forgotten.
So with this, my first post, I am taking a leap of faith and going public as it were. I plan to write about the creative process, perfectionism, individuality, photography, social constructs, letting go, self acceptace, art and perception of taste, vulnerability, etc. With the realization that creating photos and writing is enjoyable in and of itself, even if no one sees them, reads them or likes them. Including myself. I am looking forward to getting to know myself through the process as I unravel the shrouds of my cocoon. I love quotes so I will be using a heavy dose throughout the coming posts.
“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.” - Maya Angelou
Thanks for joining me in the conversation should you feel so inclined.